November 2002 rediagnosed with a recurring tumor I am going to bring you through the whole fun thing
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This is where you stick random tidbits of information about yourself.
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Brain Tumor History And Other Rants
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Sunday, July 27, 2003
I am impressed with myself. I actually followed a sporting event. I am very happy to say that Lance Armstrong won the Tour De France. Take that you French Fry snail and frog eating wimpy country 5 years in a row that an American beats your bike race.
This is D week with chemo on Tuesday and Wednesday, anyone not busy and want to go for me? Had to ask. Somehow it seems that everything goes wrong in one year and that life doesn’t seem to ever turn up somehow. I don’t know bad things happen in lifetimes versus 3’s I am definitely beyond 3 bad things in one year alone let alone the last 4 years. People say I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t go through what you are going through with the chemo but you really don’t have a choice. You either do it to live or you don’t. And then there are times that you say what are you doing it for. You just want to pack it in. But there are all these stupid things to take care of before you do it. I would want to give away my stuff to the appropriate friends before I went. (Beware if you start getting all my cool stuff). People will tell you well it will get better; you are doing this to have a better life. Then they tell you to live each day. Well make up your mind should I live each day or should I live for the future. Personally I would rather pick the days and forget the future, the more I live the more it sucks. I know there are plenty of people that feel that way. We change and forget all the things we loved to do in life and make sacrifice after sacrifice, after we get shut out and shut down. All things happen that we have no control over. All bad things happen to everyone. How many people you know have actually won the total lottery? Thank you, and you play why? You like paying more taxes, oh ok.
We live for that one chance at freedom which we never get. We have to work to live. No one hands out free tickets that I know of. This middle class gig sucks big-time. There are very few people that are happy about getting up and going to work everyday. Who the hell needs it. We go to work to pay off debt, to obtain more debt. Look at it like this if you live in NJ, you need a car. You need a job to pay for a car, you need a car to get to a job. Right there you are paying what 100 bucks a month insurance plus payment. You gotta live somewhere so they can send you bills. You have to pay rent or if you are lucky enough a mortgage. Your mortgage is most likely ¾ taxes and interest and insurance in the beginning. And taxes always go up. Rent none of it is yours you are just making some baby Donald Trump rich. You need a phone so people can telemarket you. You need to eat so you can poop it out. You get paid from your job, that is taxed. And you pay towards benefits, retirement (yeah right), life insurance etc. When you buy a new car you pay the state taxes. If you sell it the next person pays the state taxes again on the same item. What else, what about credit cards that everyone uses. You know you just “need” to pick something up. Then at the end of the month you cringe when you have to write the check. Don’t forget electricity, and all those fun bills.
You see no one ever knew I could teach High School kids home economics. Maybe I can line up a job after all. But wait you don’t have the College courses for that or any previous experience so forget it no one hires you without previous experience.
Good Luck.
7:33 PM
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