November 2002 rediagnosed with a recurring tumor I am going to bring you through the whole fun thing
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This is where you stick random tidbits of information about yourself.
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Brain Tumor History And Other Rants
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Saturday, December 20, 2003
12/9/03 Melancholy shit…you just get to feeling that way sometimes. I figure I would decorate the house up with all the lights. A kind of F U to cancer for Christmas… But I have said that before. 30 has been the pits I don’t recommend it to anyone. Avoid turning this old at all costs… it’s just an over-rated year.
You know I speak from experience when I see people being treated for Cancer it just sucks. If the battle ends for them, at least they don’t have to be beat up anymore. The treatment will just kick your ass to the point where even if you complain a lot it doesn’t help. I complained a lot don’t let me fool you. I just know there are times in treatment when you are all shitted up that you just don’t want to fight anymore. Kind of like the morning after my first chemo. Throwing up on the floor I was not about to want to be involved in this treatment. If you know someone going through this realize they are in living hell. It is one thing to find out you are being eaten alive it’s another thing to be put through physical hell to try to fight it. People say you lose your battle with Cancer when you die. Be happy they are not suffering anymore. We are nicer to our pets, we let them go with some dignity sometimes and end their suffering. People we push on and on. If you have no chance to win, why go through all the suffering at the end of your life. Why do we insist on torturing people at the end. Let them live their time out.
I mean it seems I have come out the other side again and am stable, much to the happiness to a lot of people around me. Your body tends to suppress the hell out of all the bad stuff. I don’t want to let it all go. I want to stay aware of what I kicked through to stand here today. A little perspective. I started a new medication yesterday. Now I take 2 different medications to fight off my seizures. I am hoping this cocktail will fight off future events. It would be nice to stabilize those events.
Oligo-astrocytoma, low / intermediate grade, recurrent.
Another name for the hole in my head.
7:43 PM
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