November 2002 rediagnosed with a recurring tumor I am going to bring you through the whole fun thing
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This is where you stick random tidbits of information about yourself.
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Brain Tumor History And Other Rants
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Saturday, February 14, 2004
To all you people celebrating Valentines day. Keep your bragging to yourself. Oh and St. Hallmark says thanks for buying into the whole scam.
If you need something gushy at least make it a cool tune:
Alice Cooper
Be With You Awhile
From - The Eyes Of Alice Cooper
I wish I could tell you something you didn't know
I wish I could give you something you didn't owe
I wish I could tell you a joke to make you smile
And I could be with you awhile
Just wanna be that someone you weren't looking for
Some nameless fascination that showed up at your door
And when you're sad and blue my jokes still make you smile
And I could be with you awhile
I just want to take you somewhere you haven't been
Find an old time movie where we don't know the end
Lost in the radio, drive another mile
So I could be with you awhile
Just wanna be that someone you weren't looking for
Some nameless fascination that showed up at your door
And when you're sad and blue my jokes still make you smile
And I could be with you awhile
Tired of serious conversation
Tangled up in situations
I feel so free 'cause you want nothing from me
Just wanna be that someone you weren't looking for
Some hopeless vagabond asleep there on your floor
And when you're old and gray my jokes still make you smile
And I could be with you awhile
Just wanna be that someone you weren't looking for
Some nameless fascination that showed up at your door
And when you're old and gray my jokes still make you smile
And I could be with you awhile
I just want to be with you awhile
I just want to be with you awhile
I just want to be with you...
So here I am 45 days clean with no “events”, I finished my first 6 week chemo maintenance regimen, I get 2 weeks off for good behavior now. I went to the doctor this past Thursday my last MRI was clean, nothing growing up there in my head. It pays to have that hole in my head stay just the way it is, empty.
My doctor said that 5 years is the big mark, if you make it 5 years clean without a re-occurrence you should be good. Well I got one of them years down I guess. I still haven’t gotten that warm confident feeling from this doctor so now I have to try to hunt down another doctor. I probably have to look into another facility. But meanwhile my other doctor is in the same office as this doctor, so if and when I dump him I will still see him sometimes. Is that like running into an ex? Well I don’t know him that long, so if it is, it can’t be one that I have too much history with.
If I make 6 months without an event they let me drive. I don’t miss car payments or insurance at all. I hate not having my freedom (I know you have all read that already). I don’t even concentrate on having 1 and ½ months down, I still have facial ticks which usually precede getting a random event. And the minute one does happen we re set the clock, so when and if I ever get 6 months clear I will worry about it then. For now it is something that is hard to see coming, so I keep it out of my mind, in fact I tuck it in that little hole in my head.
There is not much else to report. I don’t have to go to the doctors as often any more, so that is a relief, especially to the people that had to drive me around.
I was always independent and I would just assume go without before I ask people for help. But if asking people for help is the only way I can accomplish what I have to then so be it. It has been a humbling year. Well if I pull a favor or a ride off people once a month I can just chalk it up to the fact it is an excuse to see each other as friends. Think about how many weeks and months we let go by because we get so self-caught up that we don’t see the people that really matter to us. Phone calls / emails are cool too, but hell waste a Saturday and spend it with someone.
7:26 PM
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