Old note I never got in here: 1/6/05 Day one of being out of work. It rained and snowed so Heather didn't come by. I rested most of the day and I did what any other self respecting person does on the first day home sick- 2 hours of Springer and 1 hour of Maury. Then I slowly started my day. I think it's all the med's that just make me so tired. I took a nap around 4 and was out for an hour and a half of deep sleep and forced myself to get up so I wouldn't screw up my night of sleep.

I was trying to finish a book before I went to bed and of course got hit by a couple minute eye ticker. I think because my eyes were tired from reading, but how does that explain how I woke up the same way?

For what it's worth I feel better now that I can focus on my health and not stress about work. Heck I guess most people would rther stay home than work but not for these reasons trust me. The onlybthing I feel better about is being over the initial shock of having to fight it again, and this time I am actually at peace with it I can't control it. I try to just enjoy every moment I have with those around me. Which peple always say but I was never able to do. Then again treatment hasn't started yet.

1/7/05 I think that nap screwed up my sleep didn't sleep well.....