November 2002 rediagnosed with a recurring tumor I am going to bring you through the whole fun thing
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This is where you stick random tidbits of information about yourself.
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Brain Tumor History And Other Rants
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Friday, October 28, 2005
10/28/05
Back to the trenchs of pain and agony. Dogs reek havoc on my sleep is one thing at least they are cute. Now meds are gonna take away my food and maybe health aah the dark days will be upon us. Have an MRI, cold to pass, blood test, and my troopers need to go to the bank, thrilled. Biggest fear is going to the hospital sick for another 8 days of hell. Turns out only two of the three meds are oral one is intravenous, given in the cancer clinic through a vein, great I don't know where or how many days. Does it matter, one is too many, I am thankful for my support network of family and friends around me. The surgery / radiation combined don't hold a candle to this utter torture. Trust me I know. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. And I like my grudges. Should be great. I don't miss this New York bus at all the hustle and bustle I just don't have the energy for it, and it is a hell of a long way to go for a piece of pizza. I still have no answer on my insurance, If I don't get it I will be sleeping in a van like a homeless man biggest problem I don't own a van. None of this is my decision though; it's just a hell of a way to get from point A to B. Just when you think you are out it pulls you back in. My biggest concern is just being able to start the next chapter of my life correctly and to be a good provider and husband. Every breath I take is beautiful because of her. I am super lucky to have her families support through this. I obsess about things but not about losing this battle. Why do that when a car could run me over first and I wasted my life running from a monkey in my head. Time to reopen a bus load of faith to help me get by. People run around with their me's and wants so much, ever just give of yourself just to get a thank you. That right there is power ball lottery stuff. Ever do that stuff and don't get the thank you, put it in the hands of karma at that point, or really see out the eyes that were looking at you. Lot's of people think I am so brave, no just my survivorship mechanism kicks ass, we all want to wake up another day. You got 2 choices you do what the doctors tell you or don't. Hero's protect freedom one war at a time. They protect neighborhoods, put out fires, save lives. HEY how come Derek Jeter makes more cash than my brain surgeon, maybe he should use Derek's agent. Hey god, it's a hell of a world down here. Enough about me, but that's why you come here right. How you doing drop me a line so I know you ain't on the lam.
7:49 PM
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