November 2002 rediagnosed with a recurring tumor I am going to bring you through the whole fun thing
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This is where you stick random tidbits of information about yourself.
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Brain Tumor History And Other Rants
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Tuesday, March 28, 2006
3/28/06
Chemo is done special diet done. I am glad that is over. My platlets are sliding a little I find out more tomorrow.
I got an MRI of my head last week, I ran into my surgeon luckily and he looked at it and said it looked good. That is the best news you can hear with this situation, anything else sucks. My blood numbers are lowering a little though, I am a little nervous about that
I have been writing to a soldier over in Iraq for the past 3 months so that has taken a lot of my writing time. I send a letter every week and a package every month. I am just trying to give a little something back. I told him when they got home we will hand over the non supporters to him. He comes home in October. He is a mechanic and works nights. He’s 23 but says he feels like he is 60 some days. I got my first letter from him like a week ago. So most of my letter’s have just been one sided banter. He is lucky I can talk up a storm about the little I do in life, trust me he is probably a little tired about hearing about our dogs. Luckily he is a dog person.
I really like trying to support him and his platoon in my own little way. One package I sent over pens pads and envelopes so they can write home. No staples for them to run to. I send fun stuff like candy also. When Heather’s one friend’s brother was stationed over there we tore Walmart up for like $300 of snacks toiletries magazines it was like 3 boxes of stuff it was cool.
Want to give back search adopt a platoon. Help the people that help you. DO SOMETHING. They are sacrificing for you.
Aaaaah why am I telling the people that still care to read my rant’s. You guys are there for me, and read this train wreck. It’s the people that can’t take the time to read this that need the lecture, the whole point of this is so I don’t have to tell everyone what’s been going on so people can keep tabs on the guy that doesn’t go anywhere. Then when you do remember to call, first question, what’s going on? Still on chemo? Um been over all of this.
Thanks for still reading.
7:36 PM
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
3/8/06
I am about to finish my two week chemo therapy regimen on this Thursday. I still have to keep up the diet for 2 more weeks. I had a wicked side effect yesterday I felt like I was spinning counter clockwise (picture drunken room spins) so even walking was difficult I had to lie down for like an hour to wait it out. I just started paying cobra payments for my insurance, now my debt will just compound crazy. On disability you can’t just pull $400 out of the air each month, can you? Here’s a joke I got a collections notice for $742 from NYU hospital. I call the agency, they can’t tell me who to call at the hospital to ask about it, if I call back in 3 weeks they will have that information, she did know I had good credit though…. Go figure a mystery to us all but she has access to my credit. This is the first time I am hearing about this.
5:22 PM
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
When I look down I just miss all the good stuff,
When I look up I just trip over things.
4:42 PM
3/1/06
I was never that bad baby that you had to toss me out….
But I was never so good that I left you free from doubt
You know those days when you can’t say or do anything right and there is no logical reason why. It’s no ones fault or is it? Do I create chaos around me? I try sometimes either way I still don’t know the secret. Maybe we aren’t supposed to know. I don’t know maybe that’s why my head got screwed up physically, because I am sick mentally. And my thinking I am on top of my game is just my own insanity still. Make the world stop I want to get off. Maybe I just don’t do the right drugs. I don’t friggin know, then you got to realize we have it a lot better than a lot of other people, but unfortunately we can’t help everyone, so that leaves us back to trying to solve our own puzzles. That’s life right a puzzle? I have lost a few of my pieces that I know, so how do I get the whole picture? Intervention time for Bob. Sometimes I think I got lost along the way I have been blessed and beaten simultaneously. And I never know if at anytime I will be beaten to death or not. I have won every chess match so far and I don’t want another. I just want my blessing to be and happen for us. I have never been so close to completing my puzzle. At times it scares the hell out of me I am not used to having such a positive force in my life, in the bigger 32 year scheme of things. Some of my tightest friends know it all been there for me so, I am thankful. So don’t get in its way, and I say that to myself also.
4:22 PM
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