November 2002 rediagnosed with a recurring tumor I am going to bring you through the whole fun thing
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This is where you stick random tidbits of information about yourself.
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Brain Tumor History And Other Rants
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Wednesday, March 01, 2006
3/1/06
I was never that bad baby that you had to toss me out….
But I was never so good that I left you free from doubt
You know those days when you can’t say or do anything right and there is no logical reason why. It’s no ones fault or is it? Do I create chaos around me? I try sometimes either way I still don’t know the secret. Maybe we aren’t supposed to know. I don’t know maybe that’s why my head got screwed up physically, because I am sick mentally. And my thinking I am on top of my game is just my own insanity still. Make the world stop I want to get off. Maybe I just don’t do the right drugs. I don’t friggin know, then you got to realize we have it a lot better than a lot of other people, but unfortunately we can’t help everyone, so that leaves us back to trying to solve our own puzzles. That’s life right a puzzle? I have lost a few of my pieces that I know, so how do I get the whole picture? Intervention time for Bob. Sometimes I think I got lost along the way I have been blessed and beaten simultaneously. And I never know if at anytime I will be beaten to death or not. I have won every chess match so far and I don’t want another. I just want my blessing to be and happen for us. I have never been so close to completing my puzzle. At times it scares the hell out of me I am not used to having such a positive force in my life, in the bigger 32 year scheme of things. Some of my tightest friends know it all been there for me so, I am thankful. So don’t get in its way, and I say that to myself also.
4:22 PM
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