2/7/07
Man so many years I fumbled the ball. I feel like I dabbled in a lot of things but was never really good at any of it.
You ever just wonder what was my calling supposed to be? I mean I played instruments, but never fluid.
I am still a bad driver but better than I once was.
I am not interested in sports in conventional ones I quit early, I think after I caught a pop up fly in little league practice with my nose.
Then I was into BMX racing, and skateboarding. The racing I dabbled in, the skateboard I couldn’t do a trick on Halloween.
I don’t know you name it from High School through college I did a tour of the worlds worst jobs. I pumped gas, worked in the mall, worked in warehouses I worked in factories I worked in retail sales on commission. None of my jobs were glamorous.
Out of college I never truly got into the record industry that has been bleeding since I left college.
If it wasn’t for I tunes turning retail sales around the record industry would be even worse now. They used to call the web a phase. Now people have sounded the death knell for compact discs. So nothing truly lost there I would have just been downsized along the way.
Post college I had a decent run in radio syndication, a year in an indie label back to radio syndication where I still was making crumbs until I got into the sales end. There I got to travel every other week, see cities I would have not seen otherwise. I was about middle of the pack, not top sales dog by any means. But I held my own.
Then comes the saga of how I was laid off 3 times by the same company for all intensive purposes, it was sold twice so it wasn’t owned by the same people. Twice it was while I was out on disability. So those don’t technically count but they happened. So I was supposed to be hired over to the other department but the management passed on me they wanted somebody they could control and was new.
Ironically enough they called me for a position a couple months later. I worked with them for a year then had to go back out on disability for 19 months.
So I was out of work again. And while I was on disability they called me to lay me off Truth be told they wanted me to come into the city so they could lay me off. I said no so they did it over the phone. I cussed them out, professionally of course.
It was all part of a big down size company sell off so there were a bunch of people that were cut. Then they started calling us back one by one when they needed new staff.
So I went back again lasted 6 months this time, then went out sick on disability again. After 12 months I was taken off the books.
So I have been off for 25 months now. And now I am working on my health.
Life takes turns like a river our control over it? It depends on the situation and timing. People come and go and some come back again.
Don’t let it get you to down
My body is borrowed
yeah, i got it on loan
for the time in between my mom and some maggots
Hey my journey has gotten me to a great position in life.
During the last several years Heather has become my guide.
Personal Jesus
Your own, personal, Jesus
someone to hear your prayers,
someone who cares
Your own, personal, Jesus
someone to hear your prayers,
someone who's there
Feeling unknown
and you're all alone,
flesh and bone,
by the telephone,
lift up the receiver,
i'll make you a believer
Take second best,
put me to the test,
things on your chest,
you need to confess,
i will deliver,
you know i'm a forgiver
Reach out and touch faith
Reach out and touch faith
Your own, personal, Jesus
someone to hear your prayers,
someone who cares
Your own, personal, Jesus
someone to hear your prayers,
someone to care
Feeling unknown
and you're all alone,
flesh and bone,
by the telephone,
lift up the receiver,
i'll make you a believer
i will deliver,
you know i'm a forgiver
Reach out and touch faith
Reach out and touch faith
Reach out and touch faith
Reach out and touch faith
